My Confessions...

Before I start this blog im just wanna say im not pointing fingers at anyone, it is for everyone to know!! So listenin up cuz im only gonna say this once! I have veery strong trust issues...and like or not that's who i am! I have to get to know alot about a person before i can open up to them and i feel like i have made alot of wrong decisions in my life. I take ppl for granted and I think i forgive ppl a little too much! I think i made a mistake with the choices that i've made so far through out this lat week. I have trust issues because im scared that if i open up too ppl i will get hurt. Sometimes i feel confuesed about choices because sometimes ppl are one person...then they wind up to be whole different person. I feel like I've kept my gaurd up for a long time and that I dont want to be the one left out. The reason for my changes this year is because i have let my gaurd down. When I was in the 6th grade i was very shy and i always did the right things and i barely talked to anybody!! But i have done alot of thinking and i felt like it was time to open up. So that's why this year I have changed alot, and its because i show my true colors! I have met alot of Trifiling ppl in my life and I regret the choices that I've made with them because I always end up being slapped in the face, and I did'nt want that to happen any more! I changed because i felt i had too not because i wanted to. Sometimes I forgive ppl too much and its because I feel that ppl should have second chaces though some dont deserve it(what can I say I'm a Christian! : D). I also am afraid of being named as the "bad guy" so I sometimes say yes waaay too much! I just dont want to hurt ppl's feelings like many other ppl has hurt mine! Well the bottom line is that I am a push over and I have trust issues. I never admitted this to ANYBODY! So like I said take this post and remember it cuz im not gonna say it again. I felt like it was the right time to share this with everyone so i hope u guys understand! PEACE!!